Those useless rocks

Location: Catba
Time: Nearly the end of Covid.
Type: semi-fictional 🙂

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I am walking around Cat Ba island as usual while my friend sends me a message:

– Hey, a French film crew is coming to Lan Ha bay this afternoon. They make a documentary or something. Need 10 helpers. Wanna jump on the boat?

“A French film crew? This afternoon?”, I haven’t expected this for 2 years. In fact, after 2 years not expecting anything like it, I get used to a world when things like this do not happen. A pleasant dream probably, but u have gotten so stoic that without it, things are still normal. You get used to a barren world – devoid of activities and devoid of hope.

Except that Catba Island is nothing but barren. It is oblivious to human suffering. The sun still rises and sets everyday and I can still see that flock of white birds (I think they are storks) flying over the water surface every single afternoon. The 300-something karst mountains still lie there in the bay, looking beautiful – even sublime, and really useless. I and my friend still walk every afternoon along the beach-facing road. We get very tired of seeing each other – the other’s presence reminds each of us of the unchanging reality – a tiny group of people waiting for the external world to change their signals and unable to do anything in the mean time.

I climb to the mountaintop almost daily, thinking about tons of things and by now perhaps have become enlightened. Some Buddhist or stoic elements grow inside us in the last 2 years, u can say so. Some friends event go work in factories in Haiphong and bring back horrific narratives about what it means to work from early to late night without seeing the sun, and focusing on the whole task of fixing one part of a shoe – for example. Chinese factories and I remember a Nike one, is set there. Really brings everything into their proper perspective.

And now, hmm, how to get used to this new life again? A new lifeforce is back, but with a much slower dose than before. Things happened and now will happen again, bringing a sense of medium dejavu. I look at 300-is beautiful karst again. They will stop being useless. They will act as an economic and cultural catalysts, indirectly give us jobs and become a cultural site to marvel at. People will kayak around them, make documentary about their history. Yep. Just a piece of rock. But works wonder when things are put in the right place, and order.

Religion and architecture (religion series)

This belongs to a series on religion, some written by myself, some I copy from other sources :))

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+ Ontology: how different religions view the world.
+ Ethics: moral teachings of different religions.
+ Christianity vs Buddhism: on suffering
+ Man as a political and religious animal.
+ Art and Religion.
+ Religions in the comedy scenes.
+ Religion myths and the power of storytelling.
+ Religions vs Philosophy vs Science: why no side wins.
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From “Architecture of happiness” – Alain De Botton


“The architects and artists who worked in the service of early Islam were likewise driven by the wish to create a physical backdrop which would bolster the claims of their religion. Holding that God was the source of all understanding, Islam placed particular emphasis on the divine qualities of mathematics. Muslim artisans covered the walls of houses and mosques with repeating sequences of delicate and complicated geometries, through which the infinite wisdom of God might be intimated. This ornamentation, so pleasingly intricate on a rug or a cup, was nothing less than hallucinatory when applied to an entire hall. Eyes accustomed to seeing only the practical and humdrum objects of daily life could, inside such a room, survey a world shorn of all associations with the everyday. They would sense a symmetry, without quite being able to grasp its underlying logic. Such works were like the products of a mind with none of our human limitations, of a higher power untainted by human coarseness and therefore worthy of unconditional reverence.


Islamic architects wrote their religion literally as well as symbolically onto their buildings. The corridors of the Nasrid kings’ Alhambra Palace displayed quotations from the holy texts, carved on panels in a floriated Kufic script. ‘In the name of the merciful God. He is God alone, God entire. He has neither begotten, nor is He begotten. And none is His equal,’ read one hymn which wrapped around a reception room at eye level. In the main chamber of the complex’s Torre de la Cautiva hung a panel featuring letters threaded through with geometric and vegetal shapes in patterns of phosphorescent complexity. Al-mulk li-llah (‘Power belongs to God’), declared the wall, the strokes of the letters prolonged so as to form semicircular arches which divided, crossed and then intersected with the limbs of a second inscription proclaiming, Al-’izz li-llah (‘Glory belongs to God’) – word and image consummately united to remind onlookers of the purpose of Islamic existence.

A good thing about work – an old essay

I have been pretty busy recently. That amazes me a little since I have never been a workaholic nor possess strong work ethic. I would rather lie in bed and read something interesting (or lie in bed and do nothing? Is that acceptable?). But it feels kinda good, u know? Out of so many times that work feels draining, why does it, sometimes, feel good? Okay, it’s not as trivial as it sounds, deserving a mini-essay in this corner 😈 

The essence of work is that it’s “a well-defined goal with well-defined expectations”. Suddenly, you wake up and instead of musing about the world/ the universe/ your sad life, now you have that well-defined tiny tiny goal. Your consciousness is suddenly narrowed, your energy harnessed to achieve that particular task. A sense of momentum lingers in the air. To top it off, think “today I, together with billions of people on this globe, are helping each other”. Or increase GDP of a nation, for that matter. Helping each other is important for sure, and increasing GDP is not bad (considering that many social problems stem from poverty, yet also vice versa). Talking about GDP, Vietnam is so dependent on FDI, but hey, better think about something else…. 

Another essence of work lies in its arbitrariness. You are not that talented and by being so – you are just 1 in a million choice of workers that the employer can choose. The combination of “focus” and “arbitrariness” creates a strange hybrid of freedom. You are needed, but not that much. A weird form of attachment and detachment that is healthy for your mind. It’s not a lover that will break your heart when he leaves, but not a stranger in a crowd that has nothing with you either. You know- like a reliable, good friend. A healthy entanglement. A predictable hybrid. 

On art, pessimism, and optimism

Let’s resume our literature book club“, my friend says.
We all get excited. It seems like the right move, I thought.
What are you guys reading?”, she asks.
Turns out we are all reading very dark stuff. Woodcutters by Thomas Bernhard, or “No longer human” by Osamu Dazai, to name a few. The former is a very edgy-but-juicy rant of a writer about….writer community – a self-destructive satire :)), while the latter is a story of alienation, set in a very problematic Japanese social setting.
Hmm, seems like our topics keep getting darker. We gotta be careful. Pessimism isn’t always deep (and by that logic, optimism isn’t always shallow)“, she says.
That gets me think a bit. This topic comes up sometimes in my mind.

Is pessimism always deep? Is optimism always shallow?
Why art in general and literature in particular so filled with sadness and suffering?


Of course, life is filled with sadness and suffering, but life is also filled with beauty and wonders. By that logic, should there be more art that focuses on the more optimistic side of life?

Should we see this the way Graham Greene sees it? In “the end of the affair”, he wrote:

“The sense of unhappiness is so much easier to convey than that of happiness. In misery we seem aware of our own existence, even though it may be in the form of a monstrous egotism: this pain of mine is individual, this nerve that winces belongs to me and to no other. But happiness annihilates us: we lose our identity.”

“In misery we seem aware of own existence”, hmmm….I guess there is some sense in that…..I guess that’s why in traumatic times of history, we also had great literature. It’s easier to convey the sense of the individual at wartime, for example. Pressures and constraints force a person to react, reflect, make a hard decision, or painful compromise. That process brings out intense feelings or thoughts that would otherwise be buried in mundane, ordinary life.

Even novels that deal with mundane life details (such as modern novels by Irish author Sally Rooney, or the movie “a marriage story”) contain some key social conflicts. In “Normal people”, the two key characters have pretty different social backgrounds (but this time, she is…rich ;), so kinda an anti-Jane Austen type). I wonder how the story would be like if they come from the same neighborhood, for example? Would it be a challenge for the author to create a good story?

UPDATE 1 – found the answer! just kidding, found something good and relevant

The existence of pleasure is the first mystery. The existence of pain has prompted far more philosophical speculation. Pleasure and pain need to be considered together, they are inseparable. Yet the space filled by each is perhaps different.

Pleasure, defined as a sense of gratification, is essential for nature’s workings. Otherwise there would be no impulse to satisfy the needs which ensure the body’s and the species’ survival. And survival—for reasons we do not know—is in-written, inscribed as nature’s only goal. Gratification, or its anticipation, acts as a goad. Pain or the fear of pain acts as a warning. Both are essential. The difference between them, considered as opposites, is that pleasure has a constant tendency to exceed its functional purpose, to not know its place.

Cats display more pleasure when licking one another than when eating. (There is, it is true, in all animals, except ruminants, an urgency in eating which displaces pleasure: the pleasure comes as plenitude after the act of eating.) Horses running wild in a field appear to experience more pleasure than when quenching their thirst. The gratification, necessary in order to provoke impulses towards the satisfaction of certain essential needs, produces, even in animals, a capacity for a generalized experience of pleasure. Gratuitous pleasure.

Perhaps this capacity is linked to the fact that all young animals need to play in order to learn. Between play and gratuitous pleasure there is a face in common. Playing implies a distinction between the real and the playful. The world is doubled by play. There is the involuntary world of necessity and the voluntary world of play. In the second world pleasure no longer serves a purpose but becomes gratuitous.

For us too, the world is doubled by play, but the degree of invention mounts so that play becomes imagination. Imagination doubles and intensifies both pain and pleasure: anxiety and fantasy are born. Nevertheless the same elementary distinction remains. Pain, however much it overflows its source, always has a cause, a center, a locus; whereas pleasure does not necessarily have one.

John Berger. And Our Faces, My Heart, Brief as Photos
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UPDATE 2- FROM Oscar Wilde’s De Profundis – His fell from grace (into prison for 2 years) gave him some dark materials to write some pretty good stuff.

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Prosperity, pleasure and success, may be rough of grain and common in fibre, but sorrow is the most sensitive of all created things.  There is nothing that stirs in the whole world of thought to which sorrow does not vibrate in terrible and exquisite pulsation.  The thin beaten-out leaf of tremulous gold that chronicles the direction of forces the eye cannot see is in comparison coarse.  It is a wound that bleeds when any hand but that of love touches it, and even then must bleed again, though not in pain.

Where there is sorrow there is holy ground.  Some day people will realise what that means.  They will know nothing of life till they do,—and natures like his can realise it.  When I was brought down from my prison to the Court of Bankruptcy, between two policemen,—waited in the long dreary corridor that, before the whole crowd, whom an action so sweet and simple hushed into silence, he might gravely raise his hat to me, as, handcuffed and with bowed head, I passed him by.  Men have gone to heaven for smaller things than that.  It was in this spirit, and with this mode of love, that the saints knelt down to wash the feet of the poor, or stooped to kiss the leper on the cheek.  I have never said one single word to him about what he did.  I do not know to the present moment whether he is aware that I was even conscious of his action.  It is not a thing for which one can render formal thanks in formal words.  I store it in the treasure-house of my heart.  I keep it there as a secret debt that I am glad to think I can never possibly repay.  It is embalmed and kept sweet by the myrrh and cassia of many tears.  When wisdom has been profitless to me, philosophy barren, and the proverbs and phrases of those who have sought to give me consolation as dust and ashes in my mouth, the memory of that little, lovely, silent act of love has unsealed for me all the wells of pity: made the desert blossom like a rose, and brought me out of the bitterness of lonely exile into harmony with the wounded, broken, and great heart of the world.  When people are able to understand, not merely how beautiful —’s action was, but why it meant so much to me, and always will mean so much, then, perhaps, they will realise how and in what spirit they should approach me. . . .”














“Ngày mai mình sẽ già” (Vũ Thành An) vs Time (Pink Floyd)

NGÀY MAI MÌNH SẼ GIÀ

(Vũ Thành An)

Ngày mai rồi mình cũng già, không thể nào níu lại nữa.
Ngày xưa như mới hôm qua, một cánh hoa trong cơn phong ba.
Thời gian tựa cánh chim bay, tiếng cầu kinh đời đời vẫn vậy.
Từ nghìn trùng ta gặp nhau đây, rồi thiên thu mãi mãi xum vầy.

Ngày mai rồi mình cũng già, thân thể này sẽ tàn úa.
Được thua thì cũng thế thôi, một tiếng yêu xin trao cho nhau.
Còn dăm ngày nữa vui chơi, hãy nhìn xem vẻ đẹp cõi đời,
được làm người ôi diệu kỳ thay, tạ ƠN TRÊN cho sống chốn này.

Ngày mai rồi mình cũng già, nhưng đời người không thể hết.
Hồn ta là đốm tinh hoa về viễn phương bay xa.. bay xa.
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TIME (Pink Floyd)

Kicking away the moments that make up a dull day
Fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your hometown
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way

Tired of lying in the sunshine, staying home to watch the rain
You are young and life is long, and there is time to kill today
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun

And you run, and you run to catch up with the sun but it’s sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way but you’re older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death

Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way
The time is gone, the song is over, thought I’d something more to say

Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
And when I come home cold and tired
It’s good to warm my bones beside the fire

Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells

Roadrunner: a film about Anthony Bourdain

“Roadrunner” is an official documentary about Anthony Bourdain, but it leaves us thinking more about life’s existential questions.

In many ways, Anthony Bourdain is an extraordinary person, who led an extraordinary life.
He is extreme, sharp, and thorough in almost everything he touched: “Kitchen Confidential” is a sincere narrative of a chef exploring the world of food and restaurant; while “Parts unknown” is an authentic way to see, travel, and interpret the world.

He has been almost everywhere, sampled great food, loved amazing women, had conversations with great people and had ample time to explore the world’s culture and history. A risk-taker, a truth-seeker, a writer who writes articulate, complex lines. If we see human life as a chance to expand one’s potential and explore the external world, is it fair to say that he reached its limit?

And yet, despite that, or perhaps precisely because of that, life’s existential questions become harder to solve.

The classic dilemma of exploration and settling down.
The quest for love, marriage, and children.

The quest for contentment and happiness.
The challenge of anchoring.

All of that is narrated beautifully, humanely, in a collection of videos and images and interviews, a film about a public name who wrestles with very ordinary questions.






Science vs Religion

This post is a follow-up to a series on religion-philosophy-science.

The excerpt comes from Chapter 17 – “How to survive the modern world” book, School of Life
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“According to a standard heroic secular account, at the start of the modern age and in just a few short decades, science was able to defeat religion through rigour and brilliance — and thereby forever liberated humankind from ignorance and superstition. For centuries, this account explains, religion had essentially been doing some very bad science. It had purported to tell us how old the Earth was (4,000 years old), how many suns there were in the universe (one), how evolution had begun (by divine decree), and why rainbows existed (to remind us of God and Noah). But these lamentable attempts were finally put to an end when science was able to investigate reality with reason, assert itself against obscurantist priests, and drive religion into the cobwebbed attic in which it presently resides. Science did not so much replace religion (there was no need) as expunge the scourge altogether from human consciousness. As a result, we can now dwell without fear or meekness and enjoy the fruits of science and its constant, ever more astonishing, technological discoveries.

The story is seductive in its robustness and has a pleasingly victorious feel. But it may not be true. It willingly (and cleverly) misrepresents the purpose of religion, first by positioning it as an entity whose overwhelming focus has been to do pretty much exactly what science does — understand — and then by pointing out that it happened to do it very badly. Whereas science was wise enough to proceed with a battery of telescopes, pipettes, centrifuges, measuring gauges and equations, religion tried to interpret the workings of the universe with the help of one (in passages obviously demented) ancient book. However, in truth, religion was never really interested in doing the things science does. It might have thrown out the odd theory about geology, it might occasionally have had things to say about meteorology or aeronautics, but its focus was never substantially on explanations of physical reality. It cared about a mission altogether different and more targeted: it wanted to tell us stories to make life feel more bearable. It was interested in giving us something to hold on to — in the face of terror, shame and regret, when there was panic and grief — that could help us to make it through to the next day. It offered us ideas with which we might resist the pull of viciousness and self-centredness. It hoped to encourage us to find perspective and lay a claim to serenity in the face of our too-often impossible and tragic mortal condition.

The defenders of science purported to miss all this, simply framing religion as a flawed and daft pioneering version of physics, chemistry and biology. But from the start of the nineteenth century, prescient observers understood that religion had always been something besides this, that it had taken care of the inner life of humanity and that its retreat would therefore have implications for far more than our grasp of physical reality. Though we might benefit from a hugely enhanced understanding of lightning or the features of the night sky, we might simultaneously be in danger of losing our central resource for coping with the agonies of existence. With only science to hand, what would happen to our need for consolation? What would we do with our nighttime terrors? How could we reconcile ourselves to our mortality? Where would we be able to find peace and a semblance of contentment?

Science largely shrugged its shoulders. This was not its business; nor did these questions seem particularly pressing to many in the field. But others — perhaps more tormented and inwardly fragile — disagreed: they knew that whatever the state of scientific knowledge, humans never lose their need for stories that can make life feel more bearable. Knowing the boiling point of hydrogen (-252.87°C) will not mean that we promptly shed our appetite for consolation or perspective; understanding the structure of the atom in no way lessens our craving for something mature and psychologically soothing to hold on to in the middle of the night. For a rare period, this double need — for the consolations once offered by religion and for the truths revealed by science — was artfully held together in a way that it has never quite been before or since. In England, for three decades around the middle of the nineteenth century, from a variety of quarters, there was a range of highly suggestive attempts to rope aspects of science into the project of ethical and psychological healing pioneered by religion. These projects sought to mine science for its capacity to do precisely what religion had done so well for centuries: to guide us towards greater self-acceptance, serenity, forgiveness and peace of mind. Rather than dismissing the central functions of religion, science could, from this vantage point, skilfully and intelligently replace them.

On historical thinking

Writing about history or writing with “historical thinking” is hard.
A writer needs to be both subjective and objective, as well as broad and specific in his thinking and selection.

Lately, I came across 2 pieces that I think has great historical thinking. 1 is the intros in a book called “100 paintings of Genius”, the other is a blog post by a Chinese analyst.

I will try to “decode” these 2 works and point out what makes them effective/ efficient. (analysis comes a bit later. Wait. :)) )
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Let me show u an excerpt I like from the 1st book:

A great write-up on 20th century and its influence on art. But what exactly makes it great? I will try to decode later.

Abundance vs Scarcity – a thought experiment

This morning, to avoid doing things I am supposed to do 🙂, I spent time reading this article & explore the author a bit: https://money.cnn.com/2015/01/25/technology/swingers-silicon-valley/

The vibe in this setting is somehow similar to the vibe in “American Psycho”, or more recently, in “The big short”. While A.Psycho and “the big short” focus on the finance world, this focus on human relationships in S. Valley. The dynamics, however, are not that different from each other: in both settings, people are free to do whatever they want to do, create a digital/ financial landscape that affects the rest of the world, and swim in the seemingly never-ending flow of money and resources.

Which makes me wonder: what’s better for us – abundance or scarcity? In an abundant world, there seems to be no “anchor”: since anything is acceptable and doable, the energy keeps expanding in a shapeless way. The mental journey is a journey of expansion, then it stays flat (since there’s nothing to expand anymore). In a scarce world, “anchors” are “restriction points”: there are clear goals to achieve; there are specific obstacles to overcome. It has pretty clear lines and shapes. The mental journey is a journey of pain and constant struggle. If both (abundance and scarcity) are pushed to the extreme, it has a dehumanizing effect, but in different forms.